I Got Worked

Remember this plan? Well, as yet another supplement to improving my body strength, I treated myself to 2 sessions with a trainer at Gold's Gym. Mostly, I needed to know how to use free weights and use the machines available to me. I either always seem to hurt myself with free weights, can't fit into the machines, or have no idea how to use them. Well today was my first session with "Scott". He kicked my lily white ass like no other. After only 1 session, I now understand the use of a trainer. There is no way in hell I would push myself so hard doing it by myself. It was truly awesome. I wish I could do a whole plan with him but the student budget doesn't allow for that right now.

I was telling Chris the other day that I felt rather selfish. My life has been very body focused for what seems to be a very long time now. First with ultrarunning and figuring out how to balance it, and now with injuries and figuring out how to heal, strengthen, live strong, and really....go back to ultrarunning. It all feels very vain. What I also keep in the back of my head though is the understanding that as a future healer myself, I will be better able to treat and focus on my patients if my mind and body are well. One positive thing out of all the breakdowns that my body has been through that it certainly gives me a better understanding of pain, healing, treatment, and the experience of being a patient in search of a cure than others who haven't had to deal with injury, both acute and chronic. Would I choose to forego that experience if I had the chance? Mmm, possibly, maybe, likely......

But what I really wanted to say was that after today's workout, it is likely I won't be able to operate my car tomorrow, much less a door knob. If you don't hear from me in the next few days, don't worry, I won't have made it out of the house.